It has been three years since I stepped inside a church and you know what, I don't miss it. I no longer see God as a lighting-throwing God as bible-fearing Christians do. Or as genie in a bottle as prosperity Christians see Him. Or even as hypocrites do, they are only "love thy neighbor" Christians as they enter and leave the church building. I see God a creator of this earth and everything on it. I see Him as light and our path to Him. I don't believe all the rules and policies religion makes us believe we have to follow in order to make it to heaven.
There are times in these past three years where I even feel I am an agnostic but only because since the day I was born I have been fed into these religious lies. I have been told that many of my actions will lead me to hell or heaven yet the people that are telling me about my actions also forgot about their own unrighteous acts. So where does that leave me? or them for that matter? If God truly wanted us to work on being perfect why would He allow the devil to tempt us and even torture us. After 42 years on this earth, after 42 years of believing what I was told to believe my mind cannot wrap itself around those religious beliefs anymore.
Please don't misunderstand me, I have not left all my thoughts about our great God behind me but instead I have a greater understanding of what I don't want to be when it comes to religion. My regret is that my eyes weren't opened sooner, sooner to teach my family the true love of Christ.
Marisol
