Is it just me?

I don't know how I lost my faith. I wonder if God allowed it to happen to me or if I did because of the situations that have happened in my life. The minute the church turned it's back on me, I saw people for who they really are, human. I saw no "Christ's Love". There was no compassion. I saw the hypocrisy in all of us. Then from there I started to question everything I had been taught for the last 45 years. I have always been a rebel but when it came to God, I was loyal now not so much.