I want to thank each of you for your prayers, support, and encouragement. This has been the most difficult year of my life. I am only here because of God's grace. So many good things have already happened because of this storm and I praise God for them.
Time heals all wounds doesn't always feel true or it takes a whole of time, lol. Lately I have wanted to give up and totally walk away. Hector and I rarely talk and we are in limbo. I heard a sermon by Louie Giglio, he spoke about interruptions done by God and interruptions are the best place to be, so I will say I'm in a great place. It doesn't mean there won't be pain but the outcome will be worth the hurt. His example of a great interruption was the one of Mary. Can you imagine? She was soon to be wed and now finds out she is carrying a child. When Joseph finds out he wants to divorce her. The interruption of fleeing to Egypt, to a land that was not their own, feeling like outcasts while in their homeland babies are being killed because of their baby. Wow!! Major interruptions of what they imagined their life to be. It was the best interruption because her child was Jesus, our Savior.
This week has been difficult because as humans we want answers and we want them now. God tells us to wait and be still. He says to trust Him because He is in control. He says to rest in Him. So today after a major break down I turn to my dear friend. I tell her I'm tired and I am not sure why I'm waiting. She asked me "Why are you waiting?" I tell her because I want to be faithful to God. I want my family restored, my whole family restored, in-laws, cousins, and close friends. A quote from "Sweet Home Alabama", So I can kiss him anytime I want. I want to grow old with my husband. I want to see our girls graduate from high school and college together and I want my future grandchildren to have a grandparents home to visit, not two different homes. Then she reminds me, "Is that worth more than giving up? Is it worth waiting days, months, or even years for it to happen?"
Thank you Jesus for speaking through my friends and family. If I have to endure hurt for the end result to be glorious, YES it's worth waiting for. Just like the irritation of sand in a oyster becomes a pearl. I will endure irritation with God's help and your prayers.
With that said, please continue to pray for us. Please pray for endurance and peace while the wait. Please pray that we will open our hearts and ears to hear God's will for our lives. Please pray that God will not delay. Please pray that we find joy through fellowship with our Lord and Savior. Please pray that God will open doors for Hector and I to communicate. Please keep us in your daily prayers.
There is also so much to thank Him for. Relationships have been restored and relationships have been brought together through this trial. People are praying more and recommitting their relationship with God. God is good all the time.
Habakkuk 3:16 I heard and my heart pounded, my lips quivered at the sound; decay crept into my bones, and my legs trembled. Yet I will wait patiently for the day of calamity to come on the nation invading us.
Know that you are also in our prayers. Words cannot express our appreciation for your support and prayers in this season of our life.
Marisol
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