It started out small. We don't realize as parents how all our actions affect our children. We spent all of time in Juarez as a child, true for most El Pasoans. So I remember on our return from Juarez as we would approach the bridge my mom would always tell me to choose what lane to go on. She would say, "Marisol always picks the fastest lane." No big deal right, wrong that's where my ego got started. It seemed like a innocent game a parent plays their child.
Looking back my mom depended on me for a lot of silly decisions but it molded me into thinking that I was in charge and that I could make adult decisions at an early age. It made me feel independent and that NO ONE could tell me what to do. How would that attitude affect me in the real world? Well me tell you, it only brought destruction.
- Psalm 10:4 In his pride the wicked does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God.
I had no room for God in my life. I thought I did, but I didn't, that doesn't mean He wasn't by my side because believe me He was there. I choose to ignore Him, because I was in control. I wanted to date who I wanted, I wanted to go where I wanted, I wanted to disobey my parents, I wanted to drink, and the list goes on. I never submitted myself to HIM. I never asked Him, "what are Your plans for my life?" I prayed and I attended church thinking that was all I needed to do to keep close to Jesus.....it's so much more.
Now that I am learning to place Jesus first in my life every day all day I do feel like a Princess. I don't have to be in control because my Father the KING is in control. All I have to do is wear my pretty princess dress knowing that in the eyes of my Father I am special. Every morning I jump on His lap and ask Him "What do you want me to do for Your glory, Abba Father?"Through my storm I have come to know that I am a princess because my Father is the King
Marisol
Marisol, your blog shows incredible insight.
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